My Own Return
My Activation: The Ego Death That Changed Everything
Hola Mi Amor,
My name is AGoddess Love, and I want to tell you about the awakening that changed my life.
At fifty years young, I was traveling the world and living my best life. My children were grown, with families of their own, happy, thriving, and self-sufficient. I had spent so much of my life raising my children, caring for others, and fulfilling the roles life had given me. Now, I was entering a season where I could finally discover what it meant to live for me.
After my daddy transitioned into the spirit realm, I began to feel a pull in my spirit. It was a call to step away from everything familiar and go on a sabbatical. For years, I researched, traveled to different countries, and prayed about where I was being led. Eventually, that journey took me to the Dominican Republic.
That is where I met him.... my twin flame.
I could never have prepared myself for what that encounter activated within me.
Three and a half years before meeting him, I had been given a dream with specific information telling me that he was coming. At the time, I didn't understand what the dream meant. I didn't understand until years later, when I found myself standing inside the very experience I had been shown.
The activation broke me wide open.
What followed was one of the most painful experiences of my life. I had no guidance. I had no one explaining to me what was happening spiritually, emotionally, or energetically. I had no language for what I was experiencing.
I felt as though my soul was being split in two.
There were moments when it felt as though I were literally dying, not because my physical body was dying, but because the identity I had known as me was coming apart. I could feel the tension between the woman I had been and something deeper within me that was trying to emerge.
I felt alone, broken, dysregulated, confused, and overwhelmed by a soul-splitting pain I could not explain to the people around me.
Today, I understand that experience through the spiritual language of ego death.
For me, ego death was not some beautiful spiritual concept I read about in a book. It was painful. It was disorienting. It felt like being stripped of everything I thought I knew about myself, love, relationships, God, and my own spiritual journey.
I was going through a metamorphosis.
Layers of identity were falling away. Old beliefs were being exposed. Conditioning I didn't even realize I carried was coming to the surface. Parts of myself I had hidden, abandoned, silenced, or misunderstood were demanding to be seen.
I did not know where this was taking me.
There is a sacred pattern I came to recognize in my own awakening: the crucifixion, the tomb, and the resurrection.
There was a crucifixion of the false self, the identities, beliefs, attachments, and ways of being that could not follow me where my soul was taking me. Then came the tomb. The silence. The uncertainty. The place where the old version of me could no longer survive, but the woman I was becoming had not yet fully emerged.
Mi Amor, the tomb can feel lonely when you don't understand that you are waiting for a resurrection.
I know what it feels like to wonder where God is while everything familiar is falling away. I know what it feels like to pray for understanding and hear silence. I know what it feels like to experience something so profound that the people around you simply do not have the words to understand it.
But what looked like isolation, and what sometimes felt like God abandoning me, became something I understood differently with time. I was in the refining fire. Not for punishment. For preparation.
Although I felt alone in the physical, I was never alone in the spirit. I dreamed of my father. I dreamed of my ancestors. I felt them walking with me as layer after layer came to the surface.
I did not arrive at this work through theory. I arrived here through Remembrance.
Through breaking open. Through questioning. Through shedding false identities and old beliefs.
Through sitting with my shadows. Through learning to love myself differently. Through rebuilding my relationship with myself and God. Through returning again and again to the truth beneath everything I had been taught to believe about who I was.
Somewhere in that process, I began to rise.
That was my resurrection.
Not becoming someone else, but emerging from the experience with a deeper understanding of myself, my Divinity, my purpose, and why I had been called through the fire in the first place.
Out of that fire, the Holy Spirit birthed this work in me.
AGoddess Love Global Ascension Academy was not born from a business plan. It was born from a woman who went all the way down, all the way through, and came out victoriously.
What began as my awakening became my assignment.
It was no longer about doing what I was good at. It became about becoming what I was created for, and that is why I am telling you my story.
Because maybe you are standing in your own fire right now. Maybe your awakening did not come through a twin flame activation. Maybe it came through a divorce, the death of someone you love, motherhood, an empty nest, a relationship, betrayal, illness, a career ending, a spiritual awakening, or simply waking up one day and realizing that the life you have been living no longer feels like the life your soul is calling you to live.
Your activation does not have to look like mine for me to understand what it means to have your life opened in ways you were not prepared for.
I walked through mine without the kind of guidance and support I so desperately needed. You don't have to walk through yours alone.
That is part of why I am here.
I cannot walk your journey for you, but I can sit beside you while you walk it. I can help you understand what is coming to the surface. I can give you a safe place to ask the questions no one around you seems to understand. I can remind you, especially in the moments when you cannot see beyond what is falling away, that the ending of one version of your life does not have to mean the ending of you.
Sometimes what feels like an ending is the beginning of a resurrection.
My homecoming became the beginning of everything I now teach, and perhaps, Mi Amor, your soul called you here because your own Remembrance has already begun.
You were never broken. You simply forgot.
Awaken • Remember • Embody • Ascend
The Heart of This Work
I don't teach what I know. I teach what I have embodied. Unconditional self love is not a concept here. It is a lived frequency, a way of being that returns you to alignment in mind, body, and spirit.
What I came to understand in the depths is this: suffering is often not the absence of love. It is the forgetting of it. So my work became simple, to reflect you back to your divine nature. To unconditional self-love.
I created this system to be the support I did not have. To walk with you through your awakening, so you are not walking it alone. To give you understanding for what is happening inside of you. To hand you the tools I had to find on my own, and to remind you as often as you need to hear it, that you are not falling apart. You are being unveiled.
Everything the world layered over you is coming off. The dismantling can be painful because those layers were not just habits. They were survival strategies that kept you safe. They earned you love, or approval, or peace in places where being yourself wasn't welcomed.
You built those strategies for a reason because some of them saved you. So when they begin to fall away, it doesn't feel like freedom at first. It feels like losing yourself, it feels like grief, like everything you knew how to be is being taken, and nothing has replaced it yet.
That's the part no one warns you about. You are not losing yourself. You are losing what was never you.
What remains is who you have always been, an individual expression of God's presence.
That is not breakdown. That is Remembrance.
How I Heal
God is the healer, moving through me. My work is not to fix you, because you were never broken. I am here to awaken you and to remind you of the power that lives within you.
Once you awaken to your true God-self, you become your own healer. Your wholeness is not something I give you; it is yours to remember. I simply hold space for your return, as you release your old identity, let go of what no longer serves you, and awaken to your true Divinity.
Before we begin this sacred work together, we call forth the Divine Presence of God to guide your session, moving through both of us in His infinite wisdom and love.
No two sessions look the same, because no two women need the same support. I move as I am led, sometimes through prayer, sometimes through Reiki, sometimes through hypnotherapy weaving in whatever the moment calls for. I do not follow a script. I follow the guidance of The Holy Spirit, and I trust what rises within me.
This is the heart of my work. Every session, every course, every gathering returns you to your Divinity:
Ye are Gods. — Psalm 82:6
The Turning Point
As I moved through my own healing, I began to notice the same silent weight in nearly every woman around me: the pressure to always be okay, hidden underneath a quiet, practiced strength.
That recognition changed everything. Because I understood then what I now guide women into:
We are not broken women. We are conditioned women. And conditioning can be unlearned.
In my years of coaching, I began to witness something else, moments, sudden and undeniable, where a woman would pause, breathe differently, and simply say, "Wow…"
Not because something had been added, but because something had been remembered.
I began calling these moments what they truly were.
W.O.W. — Women of Wholeness. Moments of Remembrance.
For those called deeper into this mission — those who feel the pull not just to heal, but to lead — this work becomes a training ground. A place where Rising Goddesses are prepared to become facilitators of transformation themselves. To hold space, to reflect truth and to guide other women back to themselves.
Awakening was never meant to end with us. It was always meant to be transmitted.
Every woman will have her own W.O.W. moment. And when it comes, it is not the beginning of her healing.
It is the proof she was never broken.
It is her Remembrance. It is her return.
It is her W.O.W.
You didn't find this by accident.
Something in you has already begun remembering. That's why you're still reading.
Wherever you are in your awakening, whether you're breaking open, rebuilding, or ready to lead there is a path here for you.
Come home to yourself.
